I really am spending more time writng than I ought. I should be reading and memorizing and studying. I feel that’s a bit unfair though. If I’m expected to keep soaking up information and knowledge, creating these giant stockpiles of thoughts in my brain than I think I should be allowed to turn the tables sometimes and release these ideas.
Besides, my entrepreneurship classes and books are always encouraging us to write and be creative. I like it when I can find other things to justify myself with rather than just my own logic.
I realized lately that I do that a lot. I create these little rules and mannerisms that help guide my life along. No one else follows them but I don’t expect them to. I like the idea that I can create up my own words if the ones I’ve been given aren’t working properly. I like that I can create my own paths if the ones that are offered don’t look like ones I want to sojourn down.
Today, I am in one of the best moods possible as a result of a severe lack of sleep and a good amount of coffee. I am just tired enough where nothing bothers me and have enough caffiene in my system to make everything peaceful and happy. It’s one of those moods where I am almost impossible to knock down. I don’t have to look for the silver lining on days like today. All I can see is the silver, the clouds aren’t even existent. I burned my tongue on my precious coffee today and instead of registering the pain, I smiled because my coffee was still hot. Perhaps this foolish happinness is completely irrational, but I am determined to enjoy it today.
One of those little rules that I have is that I have empowered myself to dictate what kind of day I am going to have. I decide whether it will be a happy day, a tired day, a reflective day, a sad day, and whatnot. The type of day I have is completely distinct from my circumstances. Its some kind of buffer I give myself that is built on a solid foundation of dellusion and denial. It’s probably unhealthy, but it works quite well for me.
That’s another rule: I can do things that don’t make sense but if they work, I can continue doing them. Today is a happy day. As was yesterday. Tomorrow is looking pretty good too. Once I started deciding what kind of day I was going to have (I began this a few months ago) I have found that is very convenient to choose to have happy days the majority of time. If you could pick what your day was going to be like, wouldn’t you go for the best possible?